01/ 03/ 2019
I realize the last time I wrote here (almost a year ago) I was explaining my need to disconnect from social media. Now I’m here to tell you that I have beaten Uncle Rico at his own game and time traveled myself all the way back to an era best known for frosted tips, frosted lips and butterfly clips – the early 2000’s. Yes, world. I’ve left my beautiful and beloved Pixel for a smaller, flippier companion.
Long story short, I was getting sick of the need to constantly check-in and be distracted.
Here’s the long story. Last week I went to pick up my groceries and while I waited the five minutes for my Clicklist BFF, Donovan, to bring me my groceries, I checked my email, scanned the news, played two levels of bubble popper and scrolled Instagram. If you’re rolling your eyes right now, I know. It’s ridiculous. But, please, tell me I’m wrong. Tell me everyone who has a smart phone doesn’t get mindlessly sucked into scrolling and liking and pinning and playing and posting and checking and buying, and, and, and… Because we do. Because it’s so easy to get sucked in. Because it’s “something to do.” Since when did we need to be entertained every single second of every single day?
I was getting sick of using my phone as a way to decompress and wind down. Because really, how can you wind down when you’re scrolling and you suddenly think of your best friend from second grade and you wonder how she’s doing and what she’s up to and before you know it you’re 57 weeks deep into her cousin’s best friends feed and it’s 1:37 am?
Last month I toyed with the idea of switching back to a flip phone. I checked out which ones were available, got excited then put my dreams on pause. What if I just deleted my social apps again? What if I took away that distraction so I could be more focused? But after those five minutes in stall number one waiting for my groceries, I knew I couldn’t do that. I’ve started falling out of love with Instagram. Don’t get me wrong, I love to talk to myself on stories and I love to watch you talk to yourself on stories. I love watching people grow and families get bigger, but it just wasn’t doing it for me anymore. I knew I could get rid of Instagram again and be fine, but I also knew I’d find other ways to get distracted on my phone. And honestly, there are a lot of other things that deserve my time more than anything I can find on a smart phone.
So I’m back to the flip phone. It’s been a whole day and I only have two bad things to report.
I kind of love that texting takes forever because it makes me want to text less and call more. Social media is great but I feel like it has masked the social aspect of social interaction. I want a real conversation with a real person with their real voice or their real face. I want to hear kids screaming in the background of a phone call. I want to get so excited talking about something that I start drooling because I DROOL SOMETIMES, OKAY?!
I know this change is going to force me to get out of my snuggly cocoon, but I need it. I want it. And boy howdy, I’m going to work for it.
That being said, I’m really excited to be here again. Writing about everything from deep thoughts to my favorite gifs.
Ahhh yes, it’s good to be back.