11/ 16/ 2017

DISNEYLAND Part Two: Downtown Disney, Makeover Madness, The Long Journey Home

Since I talked your ear off last time, I’ll try to keep it brief.

I’d never been to Downtown Disney before and I couldn’t believe how great it was! Their beignets are better (sorry not sorry, they are! More dough and less air. Mmmm.) than the ones in the actual park and the Lego store was a dream come TRUE for our kids. My only regret of the whole trip was that we didn’t do Downtown Disney one of the days we went to the park. I wish we’d done Jude’s Anna makeover before we got to meet our Arendelle girls. Next time! Even though she was only Anna-fied for Downtown Disney, all the employees called her Anna or Princess. Jude was in heaven. She even had us stop so Cory could take a picture of me meeting Anna. Jude-Anna was kind enough to give me posing lessons. What a sweetheart.

And, as always, it felt SO GOOD to be home. After being in a hotel room for nine days, our house felt like a palace. So much space! What luxury!! Now if only I could find a way to combine the comforts of my home with the housekeeping staff of a hotel. Then we’d be in business.

If you have no idea what I’m talking about, check out PART ONE of our trip HERE.

11/ 14/ 2017

DISNEYLAND Part One: Deets, Eats and Peeps

It’s been a little over two months since our trip to Disneyland and I’m already craving a return trip. What I would give to walk down Main Street and be bombarded by the smell of fresh churros and buttery popcorn. With as far as technology has come, the lack of smell-ivision is really disappointing. But I guess we can thank technology for not being that advanced, because it was really hot those first few days and we were sweating buckets before we got into the park.

We went to the park with my parents, my sister and her family, and my two younger siblings. Going with so many people at different stages of life was a little crazy, but it was worth it. Disney runs through my Dad’s veins and seeing him in his favorite place with some of his favorite people was priceless. For the most part, the kids were a dream. We started early and partied at the parks until two or three every day. My parents graciously bought five-day passes for everyone, so we didn’t feel pressured to have marathon days in the park. We let the kids take the lead and followed their pace. We looked in store windows, explored alleyways and soaked up the magic of Disney. We went on the carousel first and Dumbo second. We made the mistake of going on the Snow White ride third which left all three of our kids in tears and afraid of any enclosed rides. We couldn’t even look at Peter Pan without one of them freaking out. You should have seen the sweet-talking we had to do to convince Jude ‘It’s a Small World’ was a happy ride with music and puppets. Why you gotta be so dark, Walt?!

California Adventure was our JAAAAAM. The kids were in heaven in Cars Land. The Disney Junior Dance Party gave me a look into what a toddler rave looks like and it’s straight up bananas. Jude and Ezra were at the perfect ages for Disney. Everything was real for them. They recognized the characters and could push through any discomfort with the heat and long lines. Like I said, the first few days were HOT and poor Ziggy felt it. We bought an overpriced Disney fan just to try to keep that little guy cool. Zeke was wary of most of the characters and had more fun playing with the regular cast members. I just want to take a moment to SHOUT OUT all of the Disney employees, but especially the “regular people.” They always chatted with Zeke and made him giggle while the big kids met their heroes. Disney makes it magic for everyone and I love them for that.

The last time I went to Disneyland, I was in my early twenties, single and in it for the big rides. Going with kids required a change of pace and mindset, but it’s one I’ll keep forever. It’s amazing how chill Disneyland can be when you’re not rushing around for fast passes or stressing over 60 minutes lines. Cory and I didn’t take advantage of the rider swap because we wanted to spend our time with the kids. Every morning was like Christmas for them and neither of us wanted to miss a thing. My parents watched all the grandkids for a night so the adults go out. Cory and I went on three rides (California Screamin’, Guardians of the Galaxy (RIP Tower of Terror), and Indiana Jones) before motion sickness set in. My inner-ear can’t keep its equilibrium like it used to. But we ended the night with a Monte Cristo (good! heavens!) and some garlic truffle pomme frites (GET IN MY BELLY). I’m convinced Disney food is the same food we’ll have in heaven. Don’t even get me started on the chocolate dipped vanilla cones at the Cozy Cone. Mmmmmmm.

Thanks for your patience while I go down memory lane. Here’s the video.
I’m not even going to apologize for my shrill mom voice. I was EXCITED, Y’ALL.

Can’t get enough Disney? Check out PART TWO HERE.

11/ 07/ 2017

A Weekend Vlog: Filmed in October, Posted in November.

Sometimes you film a vlog in the beginning of October and don’t get around to editing and posting it until the beginning of November. It’s fine. I’m fine.

I really enjoyed documenting this weekend and am considering doing this type of thing more often. If only to be better at documenting our regular life for posterity. But if we’re being honest, lifestyle vlogging is harder than it looks. I’m so used to being in the moment that it’s hard to remember to stop, take out my camera and film the moment. It makes me feel like a stage mom, but I love that we’ll have these memories forever. I would have never remembered Jude made up a play with the longest, weirdest name if I hadn’t filmed. I love pictures because of the memories they freeze, but having these videos is like being transported back into that moment. I never want to forget Ezra’s scratchy voice and Jude’s silly songs or the way Zeke stomp dances (this section had to be omitted because ‘Welcome to [The] York’ was playing and we all know how powerful Taylor is when it comes to her songs on YouTube. SO POWERFUL). I want to remember this time of my life with three kids three years old and younger. And if that means putting in a little more effort to document, I guess I’ll just have to deal. Because I don’t have camera crews following me around to document my life…YET!

10/ 25/ 2017

DIY Mummy Door – The Easiest Halloween Decoration EVER

I am not a HALLOWEEN person. I’ve always enjoyed the holiday, but I think that’s because I enjoy candy. In high school I liked it because that meant staying up late on a school night and hanging out with friends. In college Halloween meant dance parties and IHOP at midnight. But the older I get, the more my sweet tooth looses its power, so I’m not really in it for the candy anymore. I have to COMMIT if I’m going to eat two Reese’s cups. Like I need something to chase it because the PB+ chocolate combo is getting to be to much for me in my old age. As a mother of three I like Halloween because I get to dress my kids up in adorable coordinated costumes and trunk-or-treat in a church parking lot with my friends. If we play our cards right, we can be home watching a movie by 8:30. Halloween as a parent is a total DREAM.

Since I’m not too into the Halloween scene, I try to make the few things I do as exciting as possible. Like turning our front door into a giant mummy. I’m not a DIY expert. At ALL. So if you’re a simple woman with simple decor dreams like me, here’s a simple step-by-step guide to get the most out of one dollar and keep your kids happy all October long.

What you’ll need

  • Toilet paper from the Dollar Store – The cheaper the better. Don’t be wasting your good stuff on your door
  • A roll of masking tape
  • 2 pieces of yellow construction paper
  • 1 piece of black construction paper

What you’ll do

  • Just watch this. It’ll be easier (for both of us) than me trying to type it out. If you still need help, hollatcha girl.

10/ 11/ 2017

BRB, gonna go copyright the term ‘Mind Maze.’

photo by MegBird


This morning I sat in the Costco parking lot and cried. I pulled myself together enough to get some chicken and Zyrtec, but I had to wear sunglasses inside because I didn’t trust my eyes. A tear creeped out while I paid and when Zeke reached to give me a hug, the floodgates opened again. I sobbed as I pushed my cart across the parking lot. Wishing a stranger would stop and give me a hug. I just needed someone to look me in the eye and tell me it would be okay.

I’m trying to convince myself it’s because I’ve been to the pediatrician four times in the past week.
Because we’ve had three cases of double pink eye,
two double ear infections,
two sore throats,
a bladder infection,
and now hives.
I’m trying to tell myself it’s my circumstance.
But deep, deep down I know it’s not.

I’m not good at self-care. I’m not good at putting myself first when so many other things seem more important. I don’t know how. I have moments where I get centered, but then I’m back at square one. Grasping for calm like I’m falling down a mountain. I’m reading, I’m praying, I’m breathing, but I’m stuck. And stuck is not where I want to be.

I am so blessed to have so much love, support and patience around me, but I can’t ask for help because I don’t know where to start. How do you ask for help with something you can’t describe? How do you say,

“I’m not sure what’s going on. I’m sad again. I’m really sad. I think it’s because I don’t take time to recharge. I think it’s because I focus all my energy on taking care of everyone else I forget to take care of me. And I know I’m taken care of but that’s different than taking care of yourself. I’m too tired to edit, which makes me feel like a failure. Because when I don’t make the time to edit at the end of a really long day, I feel like maybe videos aren’t my passion or I’m not pushing hard enough. And maybe I’m not. Maybe I’m lazy or maybe I’m scared. Or maybe I’m just not good enough.

I don’t know how you “fix” the sadness – the depression. Everything I read talks about self-care but how do you self-care when you don’t know what it looks like for you? Is it writing? Is it editing? Is it painting my nails? WHAT IS IT? Is self-care letting myself stop and rest? But then is my rest indulgence instead of care? How do I know if I’m helping or hurting? Why can’t someone hold my hand through this and tell me how to take care of myself so I know.
Why don’t I know?
How do you know?
Is it like falling in love? Do you just happen upon it one day? Does it smack you in the face one random Tuesday night and say, “HELLO! I’VE BEEN HERE WAITING FOR YOU.”
How do you find it? How do you know you’ve found it?
I just want to know what it looks like.
I’m desperate for its face.
Help me.

I’m just so thick in the forest I can’t see the trees, but I know I’ve been on the other side. I know I’ve been there and I know it was good. I don’t know why I keep getting lost. Are my woods some kind of mind maze? What I would give to have a helicopter with a rescue light and a rope ladder hovering above me right now. But that’s not how this works. I have to keep finding my way out over and over again. Sometimes I’ll be able to get out fast and unscathed. But there will be times, like now, where I have to fight for the light every day. Where I walk and turn and walk and turn and pray with all my heart I’m going the right way.

– – –

I know it’s not #fun to read about depression without some type of resolve. It’s not inspiring. It’s not enlightening. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it a thousand times more:

We need to talk about our struggles while we’re in the middle of them so we know we’re not alone.

We don’t all exit our mazes at the same time. Some are in the beginning, some are lost in this weird circle that keeps producing dead ends, and some are on the outside, waiting, hoping, and cheering. Just because we’re not in the same spot doesn’t mean we can’t walk home together.
If you wait for me, I’ll wait for you.

09/ 21/ 2017

Magnetic Eyelashes – A Dramatic Review

In my last Get Ready With Me video, I mentioned seeing magnetic eyelashes on Facebook and asked if you guys would be interested in seeing a review on them. You were, so I found a pair on Amazon and got to getting. These lashes weren’t my top choice, but while checking reviews on multiple different lashes, my #1 pick went from being available to sold out with no restock date in sight. I was hoping for the best and praying the four and five star reviews I read about these lashes were the rule and not the exception.

They weren’t. At least not in my case.

The magnets weren’t on right and no matter how hard I tried to will them to work, they wouldn’t. It shouldn’t be this hard to achieve the lazy-glam look. I haven’t given up quite yet and am determined to find a pair of reasonably priced magnetic eyelashes that work! All I need is something that has magnets applied properly and doesn’t make me look like I have caterpillar eyes If you have a favorite (RELIABLE) magnetic eyelash source, holla atca guuurl! I have a feeling I’m going to need all the help I can get.

09/ 20/ 2017





*my actual handwriting hasn’t really suffered at all. I was just being dramatic and it seemed fitting to keep escalating it. You know how I do.

08/ 24/ 2017

The one where I talk about my hair, makeup and nervous poops. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Whether you realize it or not, your stomach DOES SOMETHING when you’re nervous. Some people get butterflies, some a roller coaster effect. Me? I get the nervous poops. It’s not pretty, but THIS IS REAL LIFE, PEOPLE. I was asked to speak in church last Sunday and even though I was prepared, the nervous poops still made an appearance. In an attempt to calm my nerves (and my stomach), I decided to film myself get ready. It worked like a charm. Who knew talking to myself like a lunatic was the cure all along?

I’m not fancy when it comes to makeup. But if you’re into drugstore scores, allow me to hook a sister up. I’m linking to everything I can find on Amazon because it’s where I spend 75% of my online time, but please note some of it is $2-3 cheaper at Target. It wasn’t until after I made this video that I realized I didn’t talk about every product like you’re supposed to in a ‘Get Ready With Me’ video. So here’s a list if you’re curious about what I put on my face (FYI, they’re affiliate links). I like to think I made up for not naming my products by occasionally doing that hand thing. Why do beauty vloggers do that? Is it to see the product better? Is it because they got their starts as hand models? Please explain!

e.l.f. Poreless Primer – mine ran out, but if you saw my last GRWM, you know how much I love this stuff
Olay  Complete Moisturizer
e.l.f. Color correction – I couldn’t find the exact one, but this one has more options for a better deal
L’oreal Infallible Pro-Glo
NYX HD Studio Concealer
Kristofer Buckle Sculpt & Define Palette – I bought this at Costco last year for $10. If you find it please buy one for me
Neutrogena Shine Control
e.l.f. Eyebrow Kit

e.l.f. Blush Brush – for blush, duh
e.l.f. Powder Brush – for bronzer
e.l.f. Eyebrow Brush – to comb dem brows
e.l.f. Small Angle Brush – to fill my brows
e.l.f. Retractable Kabuki Brush – this isn’t the one I used in the video, my MIL gave that one to me and IDK what brand it is. When in doubt, e.l.f.
Hands – these are mine and not for sale



08/ 18/ 2017


Last year Cory and I decided to make our anniversary’s more about experiences than gifts. The only exception to that rule is the mixed tape he is required (ahem, lovingly encouraged) to make me every year. When we were dating, Cory made me a CD and I loved it so much. I listened to it on the drive down to Provo and cried the entire time because I loved it and him so much. Every song was thoughtful and sweet and meant something to our relationship. (If songs by The Lonely Island and Sir Mix-a-Lot aren’t included in the first CD a boy gives you, he’s doing something wrong.) Well this year, Cory went above and beyond and made me a FIVE DISC COMPILATION consisting of 90 songs that reminded him of me. *cue crying emoji face* The second track of the whole series was “Praying.” The man knows his audience. *cue crying emoji face repeated five times*

Some might think 90 songs is *too much* but it ended up being the perfect playlist on our road trip to Jackson last weekend. We honeymooned in Jackson and hadn’t been back since I was pregnant with Jude, so it made sense to revisit the land where it all started. As soon as we pulled into town it felt like only a few months had passed since we last filled our mugs at the Loaf’n’Jug instead of four years. The biggest disappointment was discovering that our beloved Shades Cafe had closed. Cory and I have been dreaming of their eggs Benedict since our honeymoon. We’ve only had them three times, but trust me when I say these eggs are the type of food you write home about. We did some investigative research (read: googled and stalked their Facebook page) and discovered they closed down in December of 2013 – just six short months after we ate there for the last time. IF ONLY WE HAD KNOWN!!!! We mended our hearts by visiting our other Jackson staple, MADE and buying some earrings and cuff links, you know, adult things.

I’m the type of person who is so focused on “being in the moment” that I often forget to document. I made it a goal to document this trip and I’m so glad I did. Every time I watch this video, it takes me back to last weekend and I can’t help but smile. But my favorite parts of the entire trip were the ones that didn’t make the cut. Quiet dinner conversations, holding hands in the car, buying sunglasses at Walmart before we left because we BOTH left ours in the van, sharing our goals while we got ready and discussing our dreams as we fell asleep. I feel so very lucky to be married to my best friend. He supports me in every. single. thing I do with unfailing faith. I love you so much Cory. Thank you for everything. You’re the best of the best and I am so glad I get to call you mine.

I could keep talking about our trip or how great Cory is, but I’m sure you’d much rather watch me be awkward on camera. I don’t know what it is about holding a camera and talking while walking, but it’s a lot more uncomfortable than sitting in front of my camera on the couch. It might have something to do with all the strange looks people kept giving me. They’re going to feel so dumb for judging me when I finally land my own show on E!.*

*I’m not actually trying to get my own reality show. I let that dream die after my college roommate and I messaged MTV telling them they should give us our own reality show. They never responded. Who wouldn’t want to watch a bunch of sober college kids playing Rockband and making lip sync videos on a Mac? MTV really missed out on a gold mine. Feisty and Rico forever!

08/ 08/ 2017

My experience with postpartum depression and anxiety

For a little over the past year I have been in the depths of postpartum depression and anxiety. Even though I was surrounded by loving family and friends, I felt so alone in my struggle. I either felt anger or nothing. I hated when I didn’t feel. I would curl up on my couch and cry until my tears stung my cheeks because I couldn’t feel anything. I would clutch my arms, rock back and forth while my heart screamed for anything other than neutrality.

The longer I struggle with depression and anxiety, the more open I’ve become about it. But THIS, putting it out on the internet for anyone to read has been really hard for me. Putting your struggles on blast is a lot less intimate than talking with a friend who has gone through the same struggles or with someone who “gets it.”

A few months ago I read an article by Chrissy Teigen about her experience with postpartum depression and so much of it resonated with me. I’d like to include a section that knocked the breath out of me and made me stop as soon as I read it.

“Growing up in the nineties, I associated postpartum depression with[…] people who didn’t like their babies
or felt like they had to harm their children.
I didn’t have anything remotely close to those feelings. I looked at Luna every day, amazed by her. So I didn’t think I had it.
I also just didn’t think it could happen to me. I have a great life. I have all the help I could need…
But postpartum does not discriminate.
I couldn’t control it.
And that’s part of the reason it took me so long to speak up: I felt selfish, icky, and weird saying aloud that I’m struggling.
Sometimes I still do.”

Chrissy gets me. It has been so hard for me to get past the selfish feeling and admit I struggle with postpartum anxiety and depression. Especially when I logically know everything in my life is good and I have the best husband and kids. Something about speaking out makes me feel ungrateful for the wonderful life I have – it’s a weird type of guilt. But Chrissy’s right, depression (postpartum or “traditional”) doesn’t discriminate. It gets everyone no matter your walk or stage of life.

I am so incredibly grateful for Cory and for the constant source of strength he provides me. He literally picks me up when I don’t have the strength to move. He is always and forever my rock. Reminding me I’m strong, brave, smart, and most of all – enough – when my brain is trying to convince me I’m not. I’m thankful for my sweet children who love me unconditionally no matter my mood. Who never stop asking, “what about a biiiig hug and kiss?” Who have wiped the tears from my cheeks more times than I can count. I often feel unworthy of their love and kindness, but they are constantly showing me the goodness in my world when I can’t always see it.

For those of you who are suffering openly or silently, I hope you know I mean it with all my heart when I say I am here. Sometimes all you need is one person on your team when everything else feels stacked against you. I will always be on your team. Always

I don’t know if depression ever leaves, but I’m learning how to cope with it each day.
I’m trying and I think that counts for something.





  • Tucking in that turtle neck and slipping on those loafershellip
  • When we went to Downtown Disney we stopped at thehellip
  • Last week was awful Theres really no other way tohellip